The world is quite round. If you look at it from one end, you can see it coming up from the other end. Its so unwavering in its roundness.
Sitting in a cloudy room, with rain drizzling a few feet from where I sit, I feel soulless. Looking beyond the window bars, I see a few drenched leaves get tickled. I see them but I don't feel them. My mind has become an opportunistic machine that always tries to splash vivid colours across other people's eyes. But I've become colourblind.
And when I drown myself in this sea of misfortune, I laugh sometimes. Mostly, I laugh at myself, and sometimes, for no particular reason.

I being I

Its like I am walking through this mist. I never knew when it came into existence. I don't even realise that it thickens with my every advancing step. But I can feel it. I feel it when I hear a prolonged silence from the other end of the receiver. I feel it when I look onto the monitor and try to distinguish between what is mine and what isn't. I have discovered what one turns to at the fag end of a boring period in life, you start to do nothing and blame the system. Systems are always going to be corrupted, fag. Whenever I don't reach where I intend to I teach myself to look away and point at other things and say " Ah! this is what I've always wanted". I wouldn't even dream of going near my dreams.
Well, the only thing that I can do is make a fuss about it and ask a few people to really tell you, with as much conviction as possible, that you are a great guy and you are going to reach somewhere. Ah! only if I were interested in someone else other than me.
I came across this saying by Fidel Castro "Everyday, when you don't come across any problems - you can be sure that you are travelling in the wrong path". If so, then I would be the guy zeroed in on that specified right path. Its such a bore to 'study'. It wouldn't be so boring to learn something. But its like, its not my responsibility to learn. Its like I am wagging my finger at the world saying ' You are missing a big oppurtunity here, guys, by not turning me into the right path".
What do you want to do with life ? Well, as of now, I would be pretty happy with a high speed net connection. You see, it buffers when I load a porn video. Then I would like to play cricket and football. Then, I would like to see a lot of movies. A lot of movies. Movies that I can lose myself in. I would like to fuck my girl. I would like to cuddle around her in an air-conditioned room with a Bravia running FRIENDS on it. Preferably season 2. I would like to be adored for the beauty in my inhalation and exhalation, the art of it. You see, I should be at the centre of the world, wanking away gleefully, waving to everybody with my feet.
But unfortunately, I am stuck up with a poor net connection, a bad stomach and a virus inhabited laptop. Moreover, I have to go to college! How worse can it get? Guys, if you are out there and have your eyes open, do take pity on me and send me money. Every month. I will keep posting about my ineptitude in doing whatever I want to. Only that I really don't want to.
Yes, you are right now witnessing the last moments in the day of an individual who realises that staying an individual never fetches you money for the rest of your life but never actually gets that onto his head. Good night and I really don't wanna leave this. Please, do ring me if you think that my writing is worth shit and would advice me to shut the fuck up and go to sleep. My number is 9567265863,

In a farce