This is what they told me....I laughed of for sometime.

Your Learning Style: Curious and Brilliant

You are a very abstract learner. You can grasp even the most complex theories. You Should Study: Astronomy Biology Chemistry Computer Science Linguistics Mathematics Philosophy Physics Psychology

What Should You Study?

It just about covers everything, I guess.

Fooling myself

Dreams catch me. I drift with it. It is always the easier option. There is no effort. Everything motions according to thy whims and fancies. None to question.
Plunging into deep thoughts becomes painful when you do it on purpose, with the realization that you have got to exercise your mental mass. It becomes easier to fool yourself and others that you are in deep thought by using some word combinations that they are not accustomed to or by using long sentences to describe what you intend to describe.
You try different things as catalysts to speed up your unmeaningful thoughts and turn it meaningful. The common ones include music, paintings, some long-nosed skawky looking guy's 1200 pages book that revolves around the meaninglessness of life (which I currently use as a mouse pad),the trees that seem to be uninterested in moving etc etc.
But eventually you know that you are sitting in front of the monitor without the slightest notion of what you are writing and how much you have conveyed.Then you ask yourself--'what is the point?' Ultimately it comes down to the fact whether someone has misunderstood you to be a very good thinker or whether the guy has actually found out that you have no substance and that you are trying to hide it under the pillows of frankness.
The very good quality that most of the supposed great thinkers possessed is that they could never describe the most of their thoughts via expressions that the common human could understand. I am not accusing them for they have gone too far beyond.I don't know if this going-beyond-thinggy is great because we actually don't know if he has gone forward or backward. And they possibly cannot convey their ideas through some 25 or so tiny figures combined together.
Half an hour later, when I am looking at this, it doesnt make any sense except for that it was something that I wrote to write. Something, that most people are not good at and something that is not conveyed from the deepest core of your heart.

look...hehe..

You Have a Choleric Temperament

You are a person of great enthusiasm - easily excited by many things. Unsatisfied by the ordinary, you are reaching for an epic, extraordinary life. You want the best. The best life. The best love. The best reputation. You posses a sharp and keen intellect. Your mind is your primary weapon. Strong willed, nothing can keep you down. Your energy can break down any wall. You're an instantly passionate person - and this passion gives you an intoxicating power over others. At your worst, you are a narcissist. Full of yourself and even proud of your faults. Stubborn and opinionated, you know what you think is right. End of discussion. A bit of a misanthrope, you often see others as weak, ignorant, and inferior.

What Temperment Are You?

'With regards' to google

Dying hopes in the dawn
Tears that flow with wounded memories
Reflections that remind me of my past
Reflections that warn me about my future

Ashamed of the mighty, and stubborn
What lies ahead I know not, I don't care
In this glum of the paining past

Tomorrow, a word that lives
Ringing through my deaf ears
Trying determinedly to push once more
For glory unfelt, untouched and evergreen.

Seriously Joking

Just move on, please
Why obstruct this flow?
I know you are someone else
Why do you move so slow?
Making my eyes dance in your path
I havent spoken even two full words
But why do you become my life?
Why do you transcend me through eternal bliss?
Answer me in life, not in my dreams
Can't u see? You are interrupting me
Why do you make me think of you?
frustrating me always, heartless creature!
Why do I curse myself when I curse you?
Who is that beside you?
Oh bye then!

A review

Great!! Jack sparrow-Hats off to thee! Awesome climax! The reviewers who went about bluffing of the flawed plot should be.... sheesh I dont think they deserve an answer. At par with the first, if not better. Really loved it.
Critically, the impatient one may feel bored halfway through but it gets back on track quickly. Ah! not much bad abt it... except for the fact there is more violence in this than the other one but Jack does go on about his chirpy way.
Not giving away any more abt the plot ( which Im sure u already know).
My rating for this movie is --- 4/5 owing to the fact I couldnt hear many dialogues due to the noisy background music and also for having just too much adventure. Must see movie..

A Tribute

I feel lonely.I dont know why or I am trying to deny the reason behind this. There is a dampness in the air just trying to replicate my condition. This hour had been one that i have pondered deep for somedays now. My thoughts dwelled only on one topic.

Theres nobody near me now. It was deep boredom that plunged me hesitatingly to these thoughts.

I cant but smile when I think of writing about him. The thought that surely you are going to read this is a distraction. :D . I mean , there are somethings in life that you don't notice and always take to be granted. He is one of it. The fact that after this Saturday there wont be anybody to babble infinitely about my daily experiences is quite diificult to digest.

There are things that you don't see coming or rather you dont dwell much on it or its impacts. Its impact, here , loss of a .............brother? We both silently know we both are not the emotional kind. ;) . To emphasise on this over-brooding of mine only this is needed - Its not everyday that you are going to realise that somebody whom you saw everyday for fourteen and 3/4 years (taking into account his tours and travels) is going to be away...... probably breaking the level of intimacy we share.

I mean... hes not the best guy on palkulangara, leave alone pettah (:D). Ya, I too know that tonight theres going to be a slight rift over the fact that I need the PC but... probably it will be one of the few more to take place. Anyway, hes got his defects. Or rather I should have said hes got his advantages. This way, it seems the positive takes over the negative. Anyway, each day I come upon atleast 3 things of him that I dont approve but none I do.

I am not here to conduct a discussion on his pros and cons nor am I to cite the ways I am to miss him. But there is something unexplainable. I can see myself alone working on this PC without any fear of brother pushing me out of this cushioned chair. But then you ask yourself what was it that u wanted ? computer all for your own? Situation prompts me to say that I would like to share the computer but frankly on this issue I choose the former option. Lets take something else then ;) .
My mathaw keeps on reminding once in two months how he used to carry my bag from school to home.. I used to reply how I saved his life one day when my mother started to prowl on his female-friendly Yahoo messenger list by signing out. But you see theres something that I cant share with my mother, things like vayinottam. In that case my bro is more than a useful companion.
I feel a lot better now as I have stopped dwelling on aravind-devoid future of mine. But when that sense of loss again saturates inside me, be sure to be bored..

Let my heart grow.
Let this heartbeat steer.
Let everything in this world be real.

Never asking you, just give me.
Let the time be round
For me to gain life once more.
Let this sun go back to the dawn
In vain pushing hard, never to succeed
Vile-blooded are those veins that deny

Never asking you, but why cant you?
Let my heart glow
Let everything in this world be unreal
For me to enjoy all that was lost.

So close, no matter how far
Never opened myself this way
all these words are just reflections

There is a road in front of me that I know not
Let light fall on those faint hopes

I have been down that road before
But thats over now, no more.

Let this world turn me around
Let time embrace me again
Never to return to these thoughts.
Let the sun go down when it wants to.

My Snippets of thought

Leaves drift. Likwise do people. You just don't know which path it would take them to.
I am drifting. My priorities in life are changing. For the better or for the worse? I start to think about my future. I start to fear that I won't be able to reach where I wanted myself to. Where do I want to reach? I still don't know.

I feel ...... . I don't know. I have changed. I can feel it. .

From its inception, life is all about perception.

I can't study, I can just dream of studying.Dreams lay its fairy wings assuringly on my shoulders while Reality peeps with its unforgiving eye. I am drifting.

Is this what I really wanted myself to be? If so, why am I so uncomfortable.

Trust your heart. Do what it tells you. But I am a cheat. Negative vibes tanscend through my brain. The prospect of having to write a test day after tomorrow is the premiere cause for this.

I just want to be away. Why are we the so-called civilised. Why can't we be...just free. I want to see all those breathtaking sights, be it the gorges in the artic or the swamps of Zaire or the trimmed green of Sweden, be it the crowd of Kolkata or the peaceful, tranquil Seoul.

Why do I have to sit here? I can't break away.

Money.. it is a need. Where there is calibre there is money. World is only for winners. Deep pessimism hits me. I can't succeed. I am not good enough. I want to settle down somewhere in Sweden. Then when I get bored of living in soltitude I will move on to Kolkata.
It is so easy to dream. Far away from reality yet in eternal bliss.

Please take me away. I start to feel responsible. Responsible of my life. This isn't maturity. If it were signs of maturity I wouldn't possibly still be here writing.

I see the point. "I decide my life". Fate is only the weapon used by cowards to escape.

So.. what will I be doing 10 years at this moment? Would possibly in deep slumber relaxing after a tiresome day's work at some Software Company in Bangalore. Is that what I want myself to be?
No, frankly I want to become a writer. But I can't possibly live out of paper [:D].
I still have to study Malayalam, do the social project-draft. Reality slowly embraces me with its darkness. I am once again to be trapped.
I wish and wish honestly, I dont want to work hard. Let all the things be easy. My eyelids are dimming. My snippets switched off for the time being.

It came

It came in like all others do.... with untouched innocence. It stayed there for 12 hours waiting...
I came back from school, my brother from wherever he went.... Both of us didn't see it. It still layed itself quite comfortably in the warmth of the small unfurnished room with a horizontal slit on the top.
Quite unwarned, we laughed and joked discussing our day to-day life. Little did we know what was to befall on us........
The sun, quite cleverly, sensing the danger, returned to its den. Wary stars didn't signal to us, the almost-fulfilled prophecy.
Life has its own share of twists and turns like all M. Night Shyamalan's works have. But this is....
We look ahead, though, stopping for a moment to have one last look at the path you had crossed.

A shadow fell on it. The shadow hesitated but eventually the shadow turned itself into a silvery dark structure. The structure took it up without pain.

The journey past the climbers and the grassed garden of my house will be remembered by it for a long time....for it knew that things wouldn't be same.

The stars winced......er.... so did I... when I found out the internet bill.....so did my brother...so did my mother. It stared blankly, without purpose, at us with a three zeroes and a three engraved on it.
Silence remained, occassionaly disturbed by the screams of the on-going soap-opera, as golden as it ever were.
The writing was encrypted on the epitaph without delay........

"BSNL Internet Connection rests here
Died: 17 May 2006
Was dear for all of us.
Died when Govind accidentaly minimised a window"

PS: The window came to be called later as 'Torrent downloads"
Downloaded 3 movies that day

I am signing off, for what probably is the last time in the blogs.

See ya folks aftr 1 yr I think..( hope my father gets a brainwash)